This life on sacrifices…

It's true that im a little insane but it's so painful that im not lucid unchained like a bird.
I know fear is only in my mind but see its taking me over all the time
Im like poor, sweet, innocent thing making dry my eyes and justify.
You know you all live to just break me and its funny that you don't deny,
I think my life is up to only sacrifices…

I feel like one day, I'm gonna forget my own name and one day im gonna drown in my lost pain
My fear taking me over all the time
And im alive just to sacrifice...

have u ever experience to dream in dark?
I do, so many nights that i sleep to die, erase and silence
like erasing my life

im like burning ashes blacken inside
im a world of nothingness blow me away to the life..

why you wonder if im not hating you?
its becoz I think im still too weak to survive my mistakes..

my dry eyes don't deny that its just a sacrifice..

tell me that how can I pretend that I don't see, what you hiding so carelessly?
I saw my self in the mirror, im bleeding, but you heard me breathing.
Im froze inside my self and turned away, It must be a dream.
We all live , We all die
That does not begin to justify you.
I think its not what it seems, not may what i think.
It's only in my mind that im afraid to die
even I know its not real life and I have to die.

my fear speaks wrong and all that can come true. Then we are searching for?
I know that im not so afraid to die as much from people around me. I feel that my death is not as much harmful as much you can damage me to live and do just sacrifice.
Then why I cant kill my self?