when i die...

some words, whisper slowly in my ears
and I couldn’t find what kept me there
Everybody there, but I was alone, I was unusual

The love, hate, sadness, happiness, fights, arguments
I`ve passed through…
All that life was feeling worthless and bare
And I didn’t evn mind, that im no more breathing...
do I look beautiful…or not
I feel good that on one gona chase me here

I knew that’s the only relief of my soul
Which been paining so long there

When I die

I was so hollow inside
like i was forgetting myself totally…
I wanted my soul exists not anymore
All I did, all I had, that was enough

I don’t contain the power, to clear myself once again
I was not happy alive, but afraid to die
I was prayerful always to vanish like burning ashes in the air, atleast after I die
But im afraid myself once again to justify

The tears were frost, when I wanted to cry
My voice was like block, as to scream I try
I could feel my blood getting dry
And that’s something one cannot modify

I know you were there, just next to me
watching me, wanting me
I can feel you try to pull me down
Fearing me, loving me
But it won't let you pull me down, how desperately u try…

Hunting you, and i could sense you alive placed with me
Your hand pounding in my head
I knew, you wanted just to drag me back to world,
somehow to revise all

Tearing for me, pull me down
I know you were there, watching me, needing me
you wanted me to rid of that white gown
but It won't let you pull me down